Only two weeks left now until I leave and It feels a little but odd. It doesn’t really seem real or different at all. It doesn’t seem like a big deal or like I’m actually doing anything special and that’s what feels odd. I’ve been catching up with heaps of friends and family and everyone asks me the same questions “are you excited?” “What are your plans?” “How long are you going for” and it makes me question myself quite a bit.
I mean firstly it doesn’t seem real yet. I’ve not been to England before so I don’t know what to expect so I’m trying not to really have any expectations. I’m open to everything and not connected to any particular outcome. This adventure for me is just time to myself away from my life in Melbourne to work out what it is that I truly love doing and what I want to do. I feel like my life should really be about something and I want to use it wisely to help people, to love people and just enjoy it really and I know my current actions aren’t really bringing me to that outcome as much as I’d like them to. So I guess it’s a bit of a starting point to get to know myself better as who I truly am as opposed to who I think I am based on events and people and things I’ve just fallen in to.
As far as making plans and how long I’ll be there for… I just don’t know. I’ll be there as long as I’m enjoying myself and as long as I feel I want to be. It might be 3 months it might be a few years who knows. I just want to be free, to be happy and to make other people’s lives a little bit better.
I’ll work it out.
YAY! I can finally announce that I’m packing my bags and moving to London town! It’s only been a very recent decision and I feel very unorganised but thats kind of who I am I guess.
Just a few short weeks ago I was on the phone to my dear friend Katie, and at this point I just felt like I was in a bit of a rut. I wasn’t enjoying working in finance, I was always out for something for someone, I hadn’t been studying much, and I was neglecting my yoga practice and I wasn’t really sleeping enough because I’d always have to be somewhere for something and I didn’t really have all that much time to do all the things that I wanted to be doing. So I said “that’s it, I’m moving. I need a fresh start. I need an adventure. I want to explore some stuff, and I need to separate myself from everything that I’ve got going on here and focus on me for a little bit”. Katie replied with a “Fu*k yeah!”.
5 minutes later I was on the phone to my friend Freddie asking him about where was the best place to book flights to the London and by the time 10 minutes had passed I had my ticket booked and paid for. It was exhilarating…
…Then it was scary. I had to tell my family that I was leaving. It took me two days to get the courage up to call an emergency family meeting in the kitchen. Mum was relieved that I wasn’t pregnant (which apparently is the go to when your daughter calls an emergency family meeting) and excited that I was off to follow my hearts meanderings.
So now I’m leaving in early December. First I head to thailand for a week and a half where I will be shooting and swimming and relaxing before heading off to London for my new and exciting adventure. I’m trying my hardest not to make too many plans just yet but I feel like everything is falling together.
Following my bliss.